It’s been a rough week. It seems like everything that can go wrong this week, has. I’m having zero luck finding a job and the housing situation is super stressful. I’m having to rely on my parents for everything and it doesn’t sit well with me. I’ve ALWAYS been able to provide for myself and this situation seems hopeless. I keep reading that when everything falls apart it means something great is coming. I sure hope so because this sucks!
TJ was downstairs making coffee and I just needed a hug so I asked him for one. As soon as he held me tight, I lost it and started balling and told him dating sucks when he asked what was going on. His replied with “I told you we weren’t ready for that yet.” He just held me for a few minutes while I calmed down. There was no loving feelings there, just a friend giving me a hug...which was weird. Hopefully we’ll heal enough eventually to become best friends again so we can co-parent peacefully.
My bestie of twenty years, who’s been doing this online dating crap for a few years, had some wise words on our call last night. “You loved the IDEA of him, not the man himself.” True! So so so true. It was the idea of someone that I had so much in common with that I loved. When I really think about it, he wasn’t even close to my standards. I need someone that can hold a meaningful conversation, is ambitious, has just as lofty goals as I do, and for God’s sake...can spell and use somewhat correct grammar! Huge pet peeve there.
My parents put in an application for a house to rent for me today. It’s so cute and would be perfect for the kids and I and Grayson. It even has a fenced in yard! I’d have to drive the kids to TJ’s or school but it’s only 8 minutes so that’s not bad. I’d be walking distance to my parents new house, so that’s a plus. 🤞🏻🤞🏻
I’m dying to decorate for Christmas! It’s usually done by now but I’ve got to wait until I get into the new house.
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