"Emotional Support"

I feel more like myself than I have in years. It feels like a weight has been lifted and the fog has cleared. How did I not see how toxic we were together a long time ago? Now that I've blocked all communication, I can breathe easier. I'm not on edge about the next text he's going to send and what barbs would fly this time. When he realized he was blocked he was texting to accuse me of installing spyware on his laptop, which I absolutely did not do. Yes, I checked his browser history when I got that all too familiar he's cheating feeling and saw exactly what I thought I'd see. I snapped a few pictures and put everything back. Should I have invaded his privacy? No, but he shouldn't have had anything to hide. On Wednesday I said the only thing I request is for him not to immediately date. It is still cheating when we're legally married. He agreed and even said "Oh, I know...people get sued for that." That talk must have freaked him out because then he was searching how guys get busted cheating and whether WhatsApp messages show up on your phone bill. Who knows how long the affair has been going on but I don't care at this point. I just want to be done, for good. FOREVER. Ladies, cheaters will ALWAYS be cheaters. I honestly believed he'd changed since our separation. When I found out he committed adultery during our first separation, I should've gone through with the divorce then. I don't know what's different about this time but it's definitely forever. At this point, even a friendship is wellllll out of the picture. By the way, he called the cheating "emotional support." I'm sorry, if you're looking to another woman for emotional support you'll never learn and will die alone. I know my worth and I don't deserve a man that cheats!