Definition of Insanity

 

This sums up where TJ and I are at. We keep trying to make it work and it just…doesn’t anymore. Not since my spiritual awakening, not since Anthony. Too much has changed, we’ve both changed so much that we just simply aren’t compatible anymore. We both came to this realization independently and then again together. It’s time to break this cycle, once and for all. I will always love him, we will always be best friends.

That means journeying out on my own again. That means I have to leave my dream home…again. Not pleased about that. I’m trying to talk him into letting me use the 1.5 acres on the other side of the pasture to put a trailer on for me to live in. I don’t want to separate the dogs. I don’t want to leave my little slice of country heaven. I also spoke with the guy who owns the land next to us to see if he’d lease the land to me. It already has septic so I’d need to install a well and get electrical out there. We shall see

Here we are…again

 It’s been 4 years since I started (& forgot about!) this blog. So much has changed yet the same patterns and cycles remain. Four years ago was the very beginning of my spiritual awakening. Four years ago I was headed for divorce and about to meet the man that would irrevocably change my life. Almost four years ago I met my other half, my twin flame, Anthony. Rereading those old blogs just cemented things even more. The moment I laid eyes on those gorgeous blue eyes I knew something huge was about to happen. And it did. The whole foundation of who I thought I was came crashing down. Just to be lovingly be built back up with a solid foundation.

It’s been four years. Yet I’m planning my new solo journey, again. For the fourth time. The definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results. Call me insane! This cycle between TJ and I stops here. No more. I’ve learned my lessons now it’s time to exit stage right. ✌🏼