Playlist (first half)

1.) DONE by The Band Perry

This was his ringtone before I blocked his number. Immature? maybe...but I can't deal with the constant back and forth over text. He is my trigger to my mental health and I will NOT let him have that kind of control of me anymore. This whole song sums up how I feel. Thank God our kids are older and we only have to co-parent for four more years. After that point I hopefully will have very minimal interaction with him, if at all.

2.) So What by Pink

I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool

3.) Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You)

You think you got the best of me
Think you had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I'd come running backBaby you don't know me, 'cause you're dead wrong

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me
You know in the end the day to left was just my beginning
In the end

4.)  Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get what I want
Since you been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again, and again, and again, and again

5.)  A Little Bit Stronger by Sara Evans

This. This whole song hits the nail on the head. PS (It's been four days since I've cried)

6.) Better Man by Little Big Town 

Parts of this apply, parts don't. Surprisingly, I don't miss him...at all.

I know I'm probably better off on my own
Than lovin' a man who didn't know
What he had when he had it
And I see the permanent damage you did to me
Never again, I just wish I could forget when it was magic

I know I'm probably better off all alone
Than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute
And it's always on your terms

But your jealousy, I can hear it now
You're talking down to me like I'll always be around

7.)  Blow Me (One Last Kiss) by Pink

Tie a knot in the rope
Trying to hold, trying to hold
But there's nothing to grab
So I let go

I think I've finally had enough
I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us
Blow me one last kiss

I won't miss all of the fighting
That we always did
Take it in
I mean what I say when I say "there is nothing left"

8.) King of Anything by Sara Bareilles

this makes me think about the past year of our marriage. So controlling and condescending.

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time,
And try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

9.) Lose You To Love Me by Selena Gomez

This song is beautiful and every word of it hits home. He was always jealous of my success in my business so the "Sang off-key in my chorus 'Cause it wasn't yours" line fits perfect. 

10.) Stronger by Britney Spears

Yes! Every word, YES! Plus, it's Britney! 

11.) Smile by Lily Allen

Admittedly, this one is very petty...but true. If I ever see any sad emotion out of him, I'm just going to smile.

See, you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end

12.) What Goes Around, Comes Around by Justin Timberlake

This one speaks for itself. Karma will come back around

13.)  We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift

Another self explanatory choice. Our entire relationship has been like this only this time, it's forever.

There's about 13 more on my list but that's enough for now.