3 Reasons

This morning he told me he's filing the divorce as at-fault because of my mental health, social media posts and struggles with kratom. Let's break these down, shall we?

1. Mental Health - I am completely stable...until I'm around him. HE is my trigger. Every single mental breakdown in the past twenty years has been about him. He is poison to me and I'm sorry it's taken me this long to realize this. 

2. Social Media - I have done absolutely nothing wrong. It is not a crime to post openly about my life. I'm sure a lot of people don't understand why I share so much, and that's okay. I'm not doing it to bash or ruin him. I'm purposely leaving some things out that don't need to be public knowledge. I'm simply stating my feelings and perceptions of things. I post in this blog as a form of diary during this process. If I ever question my decision to divorce, I will reread these and reaffirm this is the only and healthiest option.

3. Kratom - it is not an illegal substance, he just doesn't agree with it. Do I struggle with addiction to it? Yes. I'm working on getting off of it again. I struggle with addiction to Monster Rehabs. I used to struggle with addiction to 5-hour energies, coca-cola... this is not a new phenomenon. This is a part of bipolar.