Sick

We got into a huge fight tonight. I told him to show me his WhatsApp and prove he wasn't cheating. Did he do it? Of course not! He makes me so sick. The girl he cheated on me with in 2016 sent me every chat they ever had to help me bury this bastard. I should post the damn conversations for the whole world to see what a slimy pathetic lying ass he is. Did it hurt to read? Like Hell. Did it cement the fact that there is absolutely no well I would EVER even consider getting back with him? YEP! He claimed he had "clinicals" at a cancer institute making $50k. Reality? He was a deadbeat son of a bitch without a job. He transferred $10K in stocks?! Riiiiiiigggghht. I found out some other disturbing news and let's just say I owe someone a huge apology. He made me lose someone that meant the world to me and I can never forgive him for that. He thinks we're both to blame for this marriage falling apart. No, I'm not having that. The way I was and handled things was a direct result of his actions of cheating over and over and over and over again. Those that think they'll change and stay together for the kids sake, DON'T!  Moving the hell on. One day I'll fall in love with someone that deserves the bad ass loyal loving person that I am. He will die unhappy and alone.